The Rebuttal

Remember my previous post titled "To the fatty running on the track this afternoon"? Well this is the rebuttal.

Rebuttal! To “the Fatty Running on the Westview track.”

Here’s a response not necessarily from the person described, below, but from a rather famous blogger who felt as if he shared shoes with said person.

“To the man who judged me on the Westview track,

I see that you wrote a Facebook status about my journey and me. It described me on the track and from what I gather it was supposed to inspire after a little insult. It went viral.

So let me tell you what I think of your post…

First off I would suggest you not judge me at all. You have my journey all messed up. My journey did not start twelve days ago. It started over a year ago. You see me at 300 pounds but what you do not know is I was over 400 pounds.

 You did not know this because I was embarrassed to run in front of other people. So I would come to this track when no one else was around. Sometimes I would go for a couple of minutes. Sometimes I would go for four minutes.

It all started when I went for 48 seconds my first time running. Yes, I timed it. Yes I was upset. And yes, I promised it would never happen again.

When I was over 400 pounds and decided to make the commitment to change my life I would wake up and look in the mirror. I would find at least 100 negative things about my body. All the descriptions you made about me…I was even harder on myself.

Then after losing a few pounds I looked in the mirror again. I did not look at my body. I looked in my eyes. I saw determination and character. I saw a man who did not want to be an inspiration for others but one for himself. I was that man.

Your whole post insults me like no end. I do not eat midnight snacks or drink beer. You probably think all “fat” people do this. Well, we do not. I ate better than most at 300 pounds. In fact, I have not had a drink in well over 20 years.

I look down because I see you stare at me all the time. I do not want to give you the satisfaction of looking into my eyes. There are people who were supporting me all along. Not people who made up fictional parts of my life.

I also do not listen to music because I hear everything. I hear the laughter and I hear the snickers. They are never about me except they always are. I have been overweight my whole life. I have not had my blinders on for some time.

There are no mantras going through my head. When I run it is clear. I have no anger or happiness. I am there to complete a task. I am good at that.

You fooled people on Facebook but you have not fooled me. You do not have respect for my journey because you do not know it. I have told my story to thousands of people. I have been told that I have inspired many as well. Not because of the way I run but because of the person I am. Not because of my 200 pound weight loss but because of the words that I have had inside for years.

Many of us have been that person being judged and then twirled into some weird inspirational story. I was judged at the gym at 400 pounds. I was laughed at in Panera at 350 pounds. I was embarrassed at 300 pounds and honestly I was the same person at 195 pounds as I was at 420 pounds.

I tell people now that weight loss should not make you love yourself more. That is the mistake I made.

So next time you look at me on that track do yourself a favor. Look away. I do not look like I once did. I do not want to be your inspiration or your motivation.

I am a runner. I was a runner at 420 pounds and I am a runner today.

And runners do one thing.

They run. Not write about other runners.
Regards,

Tony Posnanski > The Anti-Jared!
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Above: Before and after" Tony "The Anti-Jared" Posnanski Photo - Daily Mirror

The Petticoat - 21st Century Style

I bought this to wear under winter tunics and dresses for added warmth. Today's version of yesterday's petticoat but more versatile in that it can be worn as an outer garment and doesn't look like underwear. I bought an XL in black and have now ordered it in white. I could have gone down a size but prefer it not to cling, the fabric is Polyester Elastane. And it is fitted. Best item yet.


Above: Luna Shoestring Body Dress


The shoulder straps taper to adjustable shoestrings at the back which is comfortable. Made by TS, Style: K70214, I bought it online when on sale. Can recommend.

"To The Fatty Running On The Track This Afternoon"

I came across this recently and wondered what others thought. Is it condescending, insulting or inspiring? Read it and decide.

"To The Fatty Running On The Track This Afternoon"

...And To All Overweight People Who Exercise

A fitness enthusiast wrote this controversial message to an overweight runner at her local track.

"To the fatty running on the Westview track this afternoon: You, whose feet barely lift off the ground as you trudge around the track. You, who keeps the outside lane, footslogging in the wrong direction. You, who stops for water breaks every lap, and who would probably stop twice a lap if there were bleachers on both sides. You whose gaze drops to your feet everytime we pass. You, whose sweat drenches your body after you leave, completing only a single, 20-minute mile...

...There's something you should know: You fucking rock."

Every shallow step you take, you carry the weight of more than two of me, clinging to your bones, begging to be shaken off.

Each lap you run, you’re paying off the debt of another midnight snack, another dessert, another beer.

 It’s 20 degrees outside, but you haven’t let that stop your regimen.

This isn’t your first day out here, and it certainly won’t be your last. You’ve started a journey that lasts a lifetime, and you’ve started it at least 12 days before your New Year’s resolution kicks in.

You run without music, and I can only imagine the mantras running through your mind as you heave your ever-shrinking mass around the next lap. Let’s go, feet. Shut up, legs. F**k off, fat.

If you’d only look up from your feet the next time we pass, you’d see my gaze has no condescension in it. I have nothing but respect for you. You’ve got this." Source

Next Post: The Rebuttal

The Trials of the Plus-Size Clothing

I'm not sure really why I decided to start a blog about having to buy bigger clothes, aka plus sized clothing, except that nothing ever fits properly - nothing.

First, there's the problem of you can't go to just any of the clothing shops or department stores to buy a new jumper or coat or skirt or whatever, because they either don't carry clothes over a certain size (usually a 16) or if they do, they're bloody ugly.

Let's start with the major department stores - Target, Big W, Kmart, Myer and David Jones. The plus size clothes in Target, Big W and Kmart are bloody ugly, they're old, dated and frumpy looking. There was a time about ten years ago, when the "Options Plus" at Target were awful and I bemoaned the fact that they looked horrible. Then, I lost weight and kept if off for a couple of years and when I was next in Target, saw the Options Plus range had really changed - they were so different to when I was big and I remembered thinking to myself, "Why didn't they have nice clothes like that when I was big and needed them?"

Fast forward, gradually the weight crept back on and now I'm even bigger than I was when I was big before. About 11 kgs more and two sizes bigger. Target's bigger girl's clothes are "Moda" and gawd they're ugly. You can be lucky and find one or two items which are nice, but on the whole, they're awful. That is my opinion, you may think otherwise. Ditto for Kmart and Big W.

Then I discovered Big City Chic - oh my god, they had clothes in my size that looked nice. They were young, trendy and with it and had an edgy look - they were funky. At long last I had found overweight heaven - clothes for larger sized people that looked good. At last I could buy trousers/pants that didn't have a baggy seat and crotch hanging down to my knees. But they weren't cheap though.
Autograph was cheaper but they were old, old, old - I wouldn't be caught dead in them.

Citron and Blue

Hello ladies, this is the first post of my new blog, "A Fat Fashionista" and instead of beginning how I'd intended, decided to make it about an outfit, the clothes of which I recently purchased.

Casco Bay Outfit. The lovely flowing Casco Bay tunic in citron, teamed with the Sorento Wrap in blue, Brinton 7/8 leggings. Black ballet flats and Miranda Wristlet Clutch Bag in citron. This would also look good worn with navy cropped pants.